shinyandnew

Well it's that time of the year where I start freaking out about how bad of a student I am and how much stuff I need to get done before the end in December. It's not going too badly, I feel so much more tired this year but classes really are going well. I haven't had much time for picture taking unfortunately and when I do it's been crappy days but I've got some stuff in mind for a photo shoot so hopefully I'll get to do that soon.

Oh man, sometimes I want to lash out at you so badly. You're so self-righteous with your claims of pain and passion. You're really just selfish, so incredibly selfish and immature and everybody else sees it except for you. Your lack of understanding, of attempted understanding, your inability to empathize, I just don't understand it. Maybe in your mind you're the wounded misunderstood hero but in reality you're the thoughtless little boy who doesn't know what he wants and can't behave civilly if doesn't get whatever he desires when it strikes his fancy. All of this pain that you say you have is pain caused by your own hand. Your so-called br

I feel like I've been walking on eggshells for a very long time and that's not exactly the most conducive to honesty and creativity. Thus I had an old deviantart account, it wasn't terribly great, and now I have a new deviantart account. Not that I intend you to ever find this, that would be defeating the purpose, but I am sorry and I guess this is kind of my way of showing you that. Ironically enough by not showing you anything. Also I did try blocking you but apparently that only allows you to not comment or send me notes or do any of the things you wouldn't have wanted to do anyway.